the END of my story

Ini pengakhiran kisahku setelah 5 tahun menanti dgn penuh harapan,
hancur berkecai sgala angan2 dan impianku,
dia telah nekad melepaskan ku tatkala driku belum lagi dimiliki,
dgn alasan dia x sesuai utk ku,
aq terlalu solehah tuk dia lukakan,
ternyata ku xdpt menerime alasan nie,
kerana aq sggup merima dia seadanya,
aku redha dan pasrah dgn kputusannya..
kerana aq pn xpasti dgn perasaan ku..
aq hnye rse kcewa tp x mnangis
mungkinkah kerana aq sudah berjanji utk x menangis kerna lelaki yg bkan muhrimku..
mungkinkah kerana perasaan ku bercmpur baur..

SOLUSI

ayuh bangkit kembali
buka lembaran baru
stop hoping and dreaming for any relationship
because u may hurt yourself....
Plz be strong bcoz u are a muslimah
plz be strong bcoz u still hve a long way to go

POEM

kerana solehah, diriku dilepaskan
kerana solehah, diriku dilindungi oleh Allah
Hatiku dijaga rapi oleh Allah
hatiku juga seringkali diuji
dengan penangan mata seorang lelaki
kdgkala ku tewas
kdgkala ku berjaye melawannya

Ujian hati tnda Allah sayang

Ujian demi ujian menimpa tatkala driku kesunyian tnpa teman atau sahabat di sisi

Sahabat yg mmpu memberi ku nasihat dan smngat

ku tidak arif berkaitan masalah nie..

how i want to deal with?

Ujian nie diberi untuk mguatkan lagi imanku

ujian nie juga diberi untuk mendekatkan lagi diriku pade Penciptaku

Di kala diuji barulah aku sedari hikmah disebalik sume nie

kuatkah aku?

mampukah aku?

tabahkah aku?

untuk menghadapinya andai ianya tidak berpihak pade ku.

menanti jawapan dengan sabar

walaupun amat payah untuk ku menunggu

Setelah amat payah untuk ku menerima knyataan

tetapi ku tetap terima keputusan hati ku ini

NAMUN,

tatkala kuterima knyataan ini, kebenaran yg lain pula mula mghalang

APAKAH MAKNA disebalik sume kejadian ini?

ADAKAH ini PETANDA ALLAH Menyayangiku?

SESUNGGUHNYA,

aku pasrah,

aku redha,

dgn segala ketentuanMU, YA ALLAH..

 hnya kepadaMU aku bertawakal dan berserah

MY PROMISE

My late father in memory

My family are everything for me
The one who cares about me since I born is my mother
She is the only parents that I have in this world 
and I still have my father waiting for me in Jannah..
I always pray for him so that he will never be alone without my pray..

I am living without my father since 6 years old
I am still remember that time
I woke up from my sleep,
I could see many people in my house,
OH!I know them..
They were my neighbour..I'm asking myself why are they doing here.
It is 5 a.m now..it is still early for them to come to my house
I looked around me 
and I could see my father lied on the mattress.I thought my father was sleeping
But then I could see my mother and my sisters cried a lot.Then, I am thinking something bad had happened in my house.I'm asking my sisters and she said my father had died..
I am so sad and cried when I thought i would never able to see my father anymore after this..
The day before my father was still healthy and now he had died.
Since that day,my family life had changed completely especially my mother and my sisters
They work harder in order to give us education..
(reminiscing memories)

There is one thing that I regret the most
I am not kissing my father's cheek for the last time because I am so scared on that time since i'm still a kids who likes to imagine a lot..

Now,whenever i see my friends' father, I will think it is best if i'm still have my father
But then I think I have to accept the fate from Allah..this is all my destiny..
Indeed,Allah loves my father more than us that why Allah takes my father..
This all the test from Allah and i have to be strong to accept and be 'solehah' daughter to my mother and my late father.

Allah berfirman bermaksud: Kami menguji kamu dengan kesusahan dan kesenangan sebagai cubaan; dan kepada Kamilah kamu semua akan dikembalikan.

(Surah al-Anbiya, ayat 35)